Wednesday, July 13, 2005At about 2:00 P.M. today I received a phone call and this is how I felt afterwards:
1. VERY DEPRESSED
2. VERY DISAPPOINTED
I was disappointed in myself for leading you on when I didn't know for sure, so I should have spoken more cautiously.
"You" probably includes you if you're reading this even if you think it doesn't. Confused?
She still doesn't understand how important it is to me. She said something like "sometimes things just don't go the way you want them to." THANKS! That made me feel sooo much better *cough - sarcasm*
I couldn't get much work done because my mind was too distracted from the phone call I was hoping I wouldn't receive delivering the bad news with its consequences.
I feel a tiny bit better now, now that some time has passed but each moment where I have time to think about it (like right now), I will probably slip into a deep coma of depression and disappointment.